1 00:00:22,731 --> 00:00:24,023 I don't... 2 00:00:24,191 --> 00:00:25,775 I don't really pray... 3 00:00:26,068 --> 00:00:28,986 ...but if you could just help me out here... 4 00:00:29,321 --> 00:00:30,530 ...I promise... 5 00:00:33,701 --> 00:00:35,284 105. 6 00:00:35,953 --> 00:00:37,286 105? 7 00:00:37,621 --> 00:00:39,330 Oh, my God! Okay. 8 00:00:39,498 --> 00:00:41,416 Okay, run a bath, call the doctor. 9 00:00:41,709 --> 00:00:44,043 Just run a bath, get her into the bath. 10 00:00:44,211 --> 00:00:46,379 Dr. Carter, 655... 11 00:00:46,630 --> 00:00:48,089 Oh, he won't be there. 12 00:00:48,257 --> 00:00:49,799 What is a thermometer? Mercury. 13 00:00:50,718 --> 00:00:53,594 How does it even work? Maybe I can page him. 14 00:00:53,846 --> 00:00:55,805 Susan. Susie. 15 00:00:57,307 --> 00:00:58,725 Mommy needs you to get up now. 16 00:00:58,892 --> 00:01:01,561 - Cold. - I know, I know. 17 00:01:01,729 --> 00:01:03,229 Okay, hang on. 18 00:01:03,397 --> 00:01:04,814 Hang on. 19 00:01:05,232 --> 00:01:06,232 Cold! 20 00:01:06,400 --> 00:01:09,026 It just feels cold because you're so hot. 21 00:01:09,194 --> 00:01:12,488 Susan. Susan, stay with me. Susan. 22 00:01:12,656 --> 00:01:13,740 Susan! 23 00:01:16,994 --> 00:01:19,036 Has she been disoriented? Confused? 24 00:01:19,204 --> 00:01:22,665 She said that she saw a man in her bedroom. 25 00:01:26,170 --> 00:01:27,962 Are you cold? 26 00:01:30,466 --> 00:01:32,175 Okay, swing it. 27 00:01:32,384 --> 00:01:34,385 - Move it, people. - Is Room 2 clear? 28 00:01:34,595 --> 00:01:35,803 Yes, it's clear. 29 00:01:36,346 --> 00:01:37,680 Get her pressure. 30 00:01:37,890 --> 00:01:40,433 - Let's give her O2. Ten liters. - Yes, doctor. 31 00:01:40,601 --> 00:01:42,143 Tap her right away. 32 00:01:50,360 --> 00:01:52,069 How's her breathing? 33 00:02:14,593 --> 00:02:16,093 No pulse or rhythm. 34 00:02:17,429 --> 00:02:19,096 Are you God? 35 00:02:20,808 --> 00:02:22,308 No. 36 00:02:22,476 --> 00:02:23,684 My name is Seth. 37 00:02:24,186 --> 00:02:25,478 Where are we going? 38 00:02:25,687 --> 00:02:27,230 Home. 39 00:02:28,482 --> 00:02:29,816 Can Mommy come? 40 00:02:30,359 --> 00:02:31,776 No. 41 00:02:40,202 --> 00:02:42,286 She won't understand. 42 00:02:42,704 --> 00:02:44,330 She will... 43 00:02:44,498 --> 00:02:46,123 ...someday. 44 00:02:53,674 --> 00:02:55,716 Can I ask you something? 45 00:02:56,176 --> 00:02:57,385 Yes. 46 00:02:58,095 --> 00:03:00,179 What did you like best? 47 00:03:01,390 --> 00:03:03,182 Pajamas. 48 00:03:29,293 --> 00:03:32,003 She definitely knew what she liked. 49 00:03:32,421 --> 00:03:35,715 - Pajamas? - Flannel, with feet. 50 00:03:35,883 --> 00:03:37,884 Pajamas. 51 00:03:38,051 --> 00:03:40,553 Excellent choice. What else? 52 00:03:41,179 --> 00:03:43,723 In the elevator of the Bradbury Building... 53 00:03:43,891 --> 00:03:47,685 ...a man touched a woman's bare skin by accident... 54 00:03:47,853 --> 00:03:50,855 ...but it made her turn and look at him in such a way... 55 00:03:52,441 --> 00:03:54,275 And they? 56 00:03:54,443 --> 00:03:56,861 - Yes. - Ah. 57 00:03:57,029 --> 00:03:58,946 It was a good day. 58 00:03:59,114 --> 00:04:01,741 Do you ever wonder what that would be like? 59 00:04:01,909 --> 00:04:03,492 Touch? 60 00:04:03,994 --> 00:04:05,411 No. 61 00:04:05,787 --> 00:04:07,538 Yes, you do. 62 00:04:09,499 --> 00:04:11,626 Occasionally. Yes. 63 00:04:12,878 --> 00:04:14,378 Touch. 64 00:04:32,648 --> 00:04:35,524 I'm not asking for it every night. Just twice a week. 65 00:04:35,776 --> 00:04:38,486 Blue eyes. He's never going to leave her. 66 00:04:38,737 --> 00:04:42,490 Twenty minutes. Everything in this damn city is 20 minutes. 67 00:04:42,741 --> 00:04:44,408 It's never 20 minutes. 68 00:05:06,181 --> 00:05:09,892 My ass on a stool all day. She gets the good chair. 69 00:05:11,812 --> 00:05:16,524 Six pounds, four ounces. My daughter has a daughter. 70 00:05:28,662 --> 00:05:30,788 $20,000 at 21 percent. 71 00:05:31,039 --> 00:05:34,000 Pay it off with another card at 14 percent. 72 00:05:34,376 --> 00:05:35,418 Oh, shit! 73 00:05:35,669 --> 00:05:40,089 Federal 595 heavy, slow immediately to match preceding aircraft. Over. 74 00:05:40,340 --> 00:05:42,299 Jesus, wake up! Wake up! 75 00:05:57,441 --> 00:06:00,776 The little girl asked me if she could be an angel. 76 00:06:01,111 --> 00:06:02,903 They all want wings. 77 00:06:03,071 --> 00:06:05,197 I never know what to say. 78 00:06:05,365 --> 00:06:07,324 Tell them the truth. 79 00:06:07,492 --> 00:06:09,368 Angels aren't human. 80 00:06:09,536 --> 00:06:11,662 We were never human. 81 00:06:11,830 --> 00:06:15,583 What if I just make her a little pair of wings out of paper? 82 00:06:15,751 --> 00:06:17,710 Tell her the truth. 83 00:06:17,878 --> 00:06:19,879 I told her. 84 00:06:20,047 --> 00:06:21,464 And? 85 00:06:21,631 --> 00:06:23,466 How did she take it? 86 00:06:23,967 --> 00:06:28,554 She said, "What good would wings be if you couldn't feel wind on your face?" 87 00:06:54,498 --> 00:06:57,500 On the 101 through downtown L.A., no delays... 88 00:06:58,835 --> 00:07:00,544 Shit! Jesus! 89 00:07:02,714 --> 00:07:04,757 Get to work! 90 00:08:09,573 --> 00:08:10,906 What do we got? 91 00:08:11,074 --> 00:08:15,286 50-year-old male had a huge anterior wall MI this morning. Collapsed while jogging. 92 00:08:15,996 --> 00:08:18,664 Paramedics resuscitated him, but his EKG's pretty ugly. 93 00:08:19,082 --> 00:08:20,416 He's hypertensive. 94 00:08:20,625 --> 00:08:21,959 This diagonal looks tight. 95 00:08:22,961 --> 00:08:24,712 Who cathed him? 96 00:08:24,880 --> 00:08:26,755 Rosenberg. 97 00:08:27,591 --> 00:08:30,050 - Be right in. - The patient wants to meet you. 98 00:08:42,063 --> 00:08:44,773 He's pretty out of it. 99 00:08:46,902 --> 00:08:48,569 The doctor's here. 100 00:09:12,135 --> 00:09:15,304 - We're just going to cool to 32 today. - Okay. 101 00:09:16,097 --> 00:09:17,723 Sucker. 102 00:09:20,435 --> 00:09:21,852 Jimi. 103 00:09:37,744 --> 00:09:39,370 Vein. 104 00:09:53,343 --> 00:09:55,886 Kid started walking. 105 00:09:56,054 --> 00:09:58,389 Three unassisted steps. 106 00:09:58,556 --> 00:10:02,226 - Get it on video? - I wasn't even there. 107 00:10:02,394 --> 00:10:05,604 You failed as a father already. How does that feel? 108 00:10:09,025 --> 00:10:10,776 Retrograde on. 109 00:10:14,406 --> 00:10:16,573 Come down to half flow, give me a little volume. 110 00:10:16,783 --> 00:10:18,450 Down to half flow, here's your volume. 111 00:10:18,618 --> 00:10:20,244 - Ready to come off? - Ready. 112 00:10:20,412 --> 00:10:21,495 Let's come off. 113 00:10:21,663 --> 00:10:22,955 We're coming down. 114 00:10:23,206 --> 00:10:26,375 We're clamped and off bypass. 115 00:10:50,608 --> 00:10:51,650 Oh, shit. 116 00:10:53,194 --> 00:10:54,361 What are you missing? 117 00:10:54,612 --> 00:10:56,238 Sponge. 118 00:10:56,906 --> 00:10:58,198 Bummer. 119 00:11:04,080 --> 00:11:05,205 Got it! 120 00:11:11,296 --> 00:11:12,713 Thank you, everybody. 121 00:11:13,089 --> 00:11:14,965 Presbyterian's on Line 2. 122 00:11:15,133 --> 00:11:17,426 Watch his rhythm. It's gonna be irritable. 123 00:11:20,430 --> 00:11:24,058 - She's getting good, huh? - She's getting that attitude too. 124 00:11:24,225 --> 00:11:25,893 Getting an attitude? 125 00:11:28,313 --> 00:11:29,688 Aw, shit! V-tac! 126 00:11:29,898 --> 00:11:31,398 Christ! Paddles! 127 00:11:31,608 --> 00:11:33,442 Kill the music. Get her back in here. 128 00:11:33,610 --> 00:11:35,944 - Charge to 2. - Charging 200. 129 00:11:36,154 --> 00:11:38,447 - Go, go, go. - Dr. Rice. 130 00:11:38,656 --> 00:11:39,656 Two hundred. 131 00:11:39,824 --> 00:11:42,910 - Ready. - Clear. 132 00:11:44,913 --> 00:11:46,330 - Ready. - Clear! 133 00:11:46,498 --> 00:11:47,831 V-fib, no pressure. 134 00:11:47,999 --> 00:11:49,917 - You give him lidocaine? - 100's gone in. 135 00:11:50,126 --> 00:11:51,543 Buzz him again at 300. 136 00:11:51,753 --> 00:11:53,712 - Three hundred. - Clear. 137 00:11:53,880 --> 00:11:55,547 - Nothing. - Start compression. 138 00:11:55,757 --> 00:11:57,383 Kill the alarm! 139 00:12:01,596 --> 00:12:03,180 Hold up. It's not working. 140 00:12:03,390 --> 00:12:05,974 Gotta open him. How long to go back on? 141 00:12:06,184 --> 00:12:07,601 It'll take me 10 minutes. 142 00:12:07,811 --> 00:12:09,603 Come on. Nothing. 143 00:12:09,771 --> 00:12:11,188 Knife. 144 00:12:19,155 --> 00:12:21,281 Internal paddles. Charge to 20. 145 00:12:22,033 --> 00:12:23,409 - Ready. - Twenty. 146 00:12:23,576 --> 00:12:25,119 Hit it. 147 00:12:25,662 --> 00:12:28,122 - Nada. - Go to 30. 148 00:12:28,289 --> 00:12:29,998 - Thirty. - Hit it. 149 00:12:30,166 --> 00:12:31,875 No response. 150 00:12:32,043 --> 00:12:33,836 Tom, I gotta get back on bypass here. 151 00:12:34,045 --> 00:12:35,963 Almost there. Give me 7 more minutes. 152 00:12:36,172 --> 00:12:38,048 Come on. Come on. 153 00:12:40,009 --> 00:12:41,760 Don't do this. Come on. 154 00:12:43,138 --> 00:12:44,138 He's going. 155 00:12:44,806 --> 00:12:46,557 He's not going anywhere. 156 00:12:55,483 --> 00:12:58,735 Come on, don't do this! Come on. 157 00:13:00,697 --> 00:13:02,531 Damn it, come on! 158 00:13:04,159 --> 00:13:05,242 Tom. 159 00:13:06,953 --> 00:13:10,122 Come on! Come on. 160 00:13:13,751 --> 00:13:16,587 Tom. Come on. 161 00:13:31,478 --> 00:13:32,811 Mrs. Balford? 162 00:13:34,063 --> 00:13:35,314 Where's the doctor? 163 00:13:36,900 --> 00:13:39,026 - I'm the doctor. - Oh, I'm sorry. 164 00:13:41,070 --> 00:13:42,362 I operated on your husband. 165 00:13:42,989 --> 00:13:44,281 How is he? 166 00:13:46,826 --> 00:13:47,868 He didn't survive. 167 00:13:51,414 --> 00:13:52,414 What? 168 00:13:54,834 --> 00:13:57,294 We were able to restore blood flow to the heart... 169 00:13:57,462 --> 00:14:00,923 ...but he developed a lethal arrhythmia. We were unable to resuscitate him. 170 00:14:01,090 --> 00:14:04,927 Wait. I'm sorry, I don't understand. A what? 171 00:14:08,556 --> 00:14:09,598 I'm sorry. 172 00:14:11,476 --> 00:14:13,852 But... But... 173 00:14:14,354 --> 00:14:15,854 Do you...? 174 00:14:16,022 --> 00:14:17,940 Excuse me. I'm sorry, I'm... 175 00:14:18,149 --> 00:14:20,359 - What did you say? - He's...? 176 00:14:23,029 --> 00:14:24,446 What? 177 00:14:25,532 --> 00:14:27,616 Oh, my God. 178 00:14:35,875 --> 00:14:38,418 - Oh, God. - Oh, my God. 179 00:14:56,604 --> 00:14:59,314 On the table, on my table. I'm sorry. 180 00:14:59,607 --> 00:15:01,108 I'm sorry. 181 00:15:04,028 --> 00:15:05,946 I'm sorry. What happened? What happened? 182 00:15:06,114 --> 00:15:09,074 A graft occlusion? What? 183 00:15:10,451 --> 00:15:13,036 It was textbook. It was textbook. 184 00:15:19,669 --> 00:15:21,670 I'm so sorry. 185 00:15:23,965 --> 00:15:25,716 The room got so big. I was so small. 186 00:15:25,967 --> 00:15:28,051 How did I get so small? 187 00:15:28,928 --> 00:15:30,596 I should've gone back on. 188 00:15:30,763 --> 00:15:32,973 I should've massaged longer. 189 00:15:33,141 --> 00:15:36,226 I should've gone back on. I massaged longer. I lost it. 190 00:15:38,646 --> 00:15:40,564 I lost it. 191 00:15:58,958 --> 00:16:01,835 Have you ever been seen, Cassiel? 192 00:16:02,503 --> 00:16:03,503 You're looking at me. 193 00:16:04,088 --> 00:16:08,216 No, not by me, and not by the dying or the delirious. 194 00:16:09,010 --> 00:16:11,178 Have you ever been seen... 195 00:16:11,679 --> 00:16:13,889 ...like you were a man? 196 00:16:14,557 --> 00:16:19,061 In a diner once, a blind woman turned to me all of a sudden... 197 00:16:19,228 --> 00:16:21,730 ...and asked me to pass her the mustard. 198 00:16:22,190 --> 00:16:26,026 - But she was blind. - But she knew I was there. 199 00:16:26,402 --> 00:16:29,529 That doctor, in the operating room... 200 00:16:31,366 --> 00:16:33,492 ...she looked right at me. 201 00:16:33,660 --> 00:16:36,328 She didn't see you, Seth. She can't see you. 202 00:16:36,496 --> 00:16:39,498 No one can see you unless you want them to. 203 00:16:39,666 --> 00:16:41,124 And if I want her to? 204 00:16:42,543 --> 00:16:43,752 Why do you want her to? 205 00:16:45,672 --> 00:16:47,339 To help her. 206 00:16:47,882 --> 00:16:49,007 Open it! 207 00:16:49,175 --> 00:16:50,592 Open it now! 208 00:16:51,177 --> 00:16:52,469 Everybody down! 209 00:16:52,679 --> 00:16:53,720 Get down! 210 00:16:54,597 --> 00:16:56,348 Do it! Do it! 211 00:16:56,557 --> 00:16:58,392 Shit! Just give him the money. 212 00:16:58,726 --> 00:17:01,269 Did I leave the lights on? I left the lights on. 213 00:17:01,604 --> 00:17:03,438 I should have gone to Ralphs. 214 00:17:04,190 --> 00:17:06,483 - Do it! - Relax. I'm doing it, okay? 215 00:17:07,902 --> 00:17:09,736 I never saw the Grand Canyon. 216 00:17:09,946 --> 00:17:11,530 I'll never see my grandkids again. 217 00:17:13,366 --> 00:17:15,200 What am I doing? 218 00:17:15,743 --> 00:17:17,994 Just be cool. Be cool. 219 00:17:22,333 --> 00:17:23,333 Be cool, man. 220 00:17:23,918 --> 00:17:25,544 Be cool. 221 00:17:30,216 --> 00:17:32,008 Holy shit. 222 00:17:33,928 --> 00:17:35,804 They don't need to see us. 223 00:17:54,824 --> 00:17:56,867 Hey, you're early. 224 00:18:29,442 --> 00:18:30,859 What's going on? 225 00:18:31,027 --> 00:18:33,403 Ferris was looking for you. 226 00:18:33,654 --> 00:18:35,197 Maggie. 227 00:18:44,957 --> 00:18:48,293 - What's going on? I have a mitral valve to do. - They canceled it. 228 00:18:49,378 --> 00:18:51,087 - Who canceled it? - Sheffield. 229 00:18:51,464 --> 00:18:52,714 Why are you telling me? 230 00:18:52,924 --> 00:18:53,924 He was busy. 231 00:18:54,133 --> 00:18:55,467 He was chickenshit. 232 00:18:55,760 --> 00:18:57,719 - Maggie, you're sick. - I'm not sick. 233 00:18:57,929 --> 00:18:59,554 You're sick and you can't operate. 234 00:18:59,764 --> 00:19:02,516 They've rescheduled for Monday. It's elective. No big deal. 235 00:19:02,683 --> 00:19:07,020 It is unprofessional and it embarrasses me in front of my staff. 236 00:19:10,525 --> 00:19:13,068 I saw the chart on Balford. 237 00:19:13,236 --> 00:19:15,654 - What? - I'm on the committee. It's on review. 238 00:19:16,531 --> 00:19:18,281 - It wasn't your fault. - I know. 239 00:19:18,491 --> 00:19:19,950 Then what's the problem? 240 00:19:24,205 --> 00:19:25,455 I don't know. 241 00:19:25,623 --> 00:19:29,417 Maggie, you put up a terrific fight. 242 00:19:30,211 --> 00:19:31,711 Yeah. 243 00:19:31,879 --> 00:19:33,755 We fight for people's lives, right? 244 00:19:33,965 --> 00:19:35,674 Uh-huh. 245 00:19:36,592 --> 00:19:39,135 Don't you ever wonder who it is we're fighting with? 246 00:19:43,850 --> 00:19:47,143 - So I'm crazy and I'm chemically imbalanced. - You're tired. 247 00:19:48,271 --> 00:19:49,938 You have moments. 248 00:19:51,732 --> 00:19:52,899 Why didn't you call me? 249 00:19:55,611 --> 00:19:57,654 Because I never sleep when you stay over. 250 00:19:57,864 --> 00:19:59,906 You never sleep whether I stay over or not. 251 00:20:02,326 --> 00:20:03,410 You're good. 252 00:20:03,578 --> 00:20:04,870 You know it. 253 00:20:05,288 --> 00:20:07,497 Come back Monday and get back on the horse. 254 00:20:09,166 --> 00:20:10,166 Doctor? 255 00:20:16,924 --> 00:20:18,425 I'll see you. 256 00:20:44,118 --> 00:20:46,161 "...shore of the pond in my shirtsleeves..." 257 00:20:46,329 --> 00:20:48,747 "...Amazon basin in the north, once an island sea..." 258 00:20:49,040 --> 00:20:51,666 "The highest truth on the subject remains unsaid... 259 00:20:51,959 --> 00:20:54,628 ...probably cannot be said." 260 00:20:56,797 --> 00:20:59,090 "Not knowing how to react to this confinement... 261 00:20:59,258 --> 00:21:02,510 ...she begins to pull away from the awareness she had once exposed... 262 00:21:02,678 --> 00:21:05,597 ...through her recognition of external realities." 263 00:21:07,516 --> 00:21:09,142 "Commencing search." Searching my soul. 264 00:21:09,310 --> 00:21:12,354 What happened to the cards? You could touch the cards. 265 00:21:12,521 --> 00:21:14,731 She's been looking at me for the last half-hour. 266 00:21:14,941 --> 00:21:16,316 Maybe if I just hang here... 267 00:21:16,484 --> 00:21:20,862 "This is a delicious evening, when the whole body's one sense..." 268 00:21:21,030 --> 00:21:25,158 What if I screamed? What if I just screamed right now? 269 00:21:26,369 --> 00:21:28,495 "When a woman decides to sleep with a man..." 270 00:21:28,663 --> 00:21:30,580 "I had three chairs in my house..." 271 00:21:30,748 --> 00:21:33,708 "You knew there would always be a spring... 272 00:21:33,876 --> 00:21:38,421 ...as you knew the river would flow again after it was frozen. 273 00:21:38,589 --> 00:21:42,425 When the cold rains kept on and killed the spring... 274 00:21:42,593 --> 00:21:48,098 ...it was as though a young person had died for no reason." 275 00:22:23,134 --> 00:22:26,052 All right, they have rescheduled the operation for Monday. 276 00:22:26,262 --> 00:22:27,595 What happened yesterday? 277 00:22:27,763 --> 00:22:29,431 They had a golf tournament. 278 00:22:29,640 --> 00:22:31,224 Who knows with these people? 279 00:22:31,392 --> 00:22:32,767 Good morning, Mr. Messinger. 280 00:22:32,935 --> 00:22:36,104 The "G" is soft, like "messenger." 281 00:22:38,149 --> 00:22:39,149 What is on your lip? 282 00:22:39,567 --> 00:22:41,985 What? Am I slobbering here? 283 00:22:47,074 --> 00:22:49,784 - Where did you get that? - What am I, a prisoner? 284 00:22:49,952 --> 00:22:52,996 You wanna get well or you want Ben and Jerry's? 285 00:22:53,205 --> 00:22:54,539 This operation is a big deal. 286 00:22:55,291 --> 00:22:57,500 Continue to eat in this manner... 287 00:22:57,668 --> 00:23:00,045 ...you might as well skip it. Save the 30 grand. 288 00:23:00,212 --> 00:23:04,466 If you'd have performed the operation yesterday like you were supposed to... 289 00:23:04,633 --> 00:23:08,011 ...I'd be sucking carrots through a straw in my arm. What happened? 290 00:23:08,763 --> 00:23:11,389 Circumstances were not optimal for the procedure. 291 00:23:11,599 --> 00:23:15,810 Hey, I ain't "the procedure." My name is Nathan Messinger and I'm right here. 292 00:23:22,485 --> 00:23:25,528 Miss, can you tell me where the bathroom is? 293 00:23:26,280 --> 00:23:28,156 Okay, to the left? Yeah, okay. 294 00:24:40,604 --> 00:24:43,064 Hello, hello, hello... 295 00:24:45,776 --> 00:24:48,570 Floating, floating. Don't pop it. Don't pop it! 296 00:24:49,488 --> 00:24:51,865 Do you know the Muffin Man 297 00:24:52,032 --> 00:24:54,200 The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man? 298 00:25:37,995 --> 00:25:39,537 Maggie. 299 00:25:40,289 --> 00:25:42,498 - Hi, Anne. - What are you doing here? 300 00:25:43,167 --> 00:25:44,792 I was on my way up to X-Ray... 301 00:25:45,085 --> 00:25:47,754 ...and I thought I'd stop in and just... 302 00:25:48,422 --> 00:25:49,505 ...hide. 303 00:25:50,382 --> 00:25:51,466 From what? 304 00:25:53,677 --> 00:25:55,261 I should've gone into pediatrics. 305 00:25:55,471 --> 00:25:56,888 Oh, no. 306 00:25:57,056 --> 00:25:59,724 Every guy you meet is either married or a gyno. 307 00:25:59,892 --> 00:26:03,770 Never date a man who knows more about your vagina than you do. 308 00:26:05,773 --> 00:26:08,149 Poor little guy. 309 00:26:09,693 --> 00:26:11,736 Yeah, okay. 310 00:26:11,904 --> 00:26:13,821 He never stops crying. 311 00:26:13,989 --> 00:26:16,824 - What's wrong with him? - No insurance. 312 00:26:17,910 --> 00:26:20,828 Found him in a dumpster behind the House of Pies. 313 00:26:21,288 --> 00:26:23,289 We worked him up the wazoo for everything... 314 00:26:23,457 --> 00:26:26,292 ...from drug exposure to diabetes. We got nothing. 315 00:26:27,503 --> 00:26:28,628 May I? 316 00:26:30,256 --> 00:26:31,714 Yeah. 317 00:26:41,642 --> 00:26:42,934 Did you do an ultrasound? 318 00:26:43,143 --> 00:26:44,852 - You hear a murmur? - Worth a shot. 319 00:26:45,020 --> 00:26:46,062 Yeah. 320 00:26:46,230 --> 00:26:49,274 Okay, baby. Yes. 321 00:26:51,277 --> 00:26:54,028 So, what are you hiding from? 322 00:26:56,073 --> 00:26:57,865 My patient's wife. 323 00:26:58,867 --> 00:27:01,869 She wants me to tell her that her husband is gonna be okay... 324 00:27:02,204 --> 00:27:04,831 ...that I have every confidence... 325 00:27:05,666 --> 00:27:06,874 ...and I don't. 326 00:27:07,084 --> 00:27:10,253 And after all this time, and after all this work... 327 00:27:10,462 --> 00:27:12,839 ...I suddenly have this feeling that... 328 00:27:14,341 --> 00:27:17,427 ...none of this is in my hands. Nothing. 329 00:27:18,429 --> 00:27:22,181 And if it isn't... If it isn't, what do I do with that? 330 00:28:20,991 --> 00:28:22,283 Excuse me. 331 00:28:30,459 --> 00:28:31,501 Are you a visitor? 332 00:28:33,253 --> 00:28:34,253 Yes. 333 00:28:35,297 --> 00:28:38,007 Well, visiting hours have been over since 8:00. 334 00:28:38,967 --> 00:28:40,593 Why do they have that? 335 00:28:41,387 --> 00:28:43,805 - What? - Hours. 336 00:28:44,431 --> 00:28:47,016 Doesn't it help the patient to be visited? 337 00:28:49,478 --> 00:28:51,270 Who are you visiting? Mr. Messinger? 338 00:28:51,522 --> 00:28:53,064 Right now? 339 00:28:53,232 --> 00:28:54,899 Yeah. 340 00:28:56,985 --> 00:28:58,403 You. 341 00:29:02,199 --> 00:29:03,574 I don't need a visitor. 342 00:29:03,826 --> 00:29:04,992 You're not ill? 343 00:29:05,244 --> 00:29:06,244 No. 344 00:29:08,372 --> 00:29:10,248 I'm one of the doctors here. 345 00:29:13,210 --> 00:29:14,627 Are you in despair? 346 00:29:19,383 --> 00:29:21,509 I lost a patient. 347 00:29:22,052 --> 00:29:23,886 You did everything you could? 348 00:29:25,431 --> 00:29:27,890 I was holding his heart in my hand when he died. 349 00:29:29,476 --> 00:29:30,810 Then he wasn't alone. 350 00:29:31,019 --> 00:29:32,395 Yes, he was. 351 00:29:32,604 --> 00:29:33,813 People die. 352 00:29:34,022 --> 00:29:35,022 Not on my table. 353 00:29:35,274 --> 00:29:37,859 People die when their bodies give out. 354 00:29:38,068 --> 00:29:41,612 It's my job to keep their bodies from giving out. Or what am I doing here? 355 00:29:41,822 --> 00:29:43,739 It wasn't your fault, Maggie. 356 00:29:43,949 --> 00:29:45,575 I wanted him to live. 357 00:29:45,784 --> 00:29:47,910 He is living. 358 00:29:48,078 --> 00:29:49,829 Just not the way you think. 359 00:29:57,838 --> 00:29:59,505 I don't believe in that. 360 00:30:00,048 --> 00:30:02,925 Some things are true whether you believe in them or not. 361 00:30:04,970 --> 00:30:06,179 How did you know my name? 362 00:30:10,726 --> 00:30:11,726 What's yours? 363 00:30:14,021 --> 00:30:18,900 Seth. 364 00:30:23,739 --> 00:30:25,698 You better get out of here, Seth... 365 00:30:25,866 --> 00:30:28,951 ...or Security's gonna think you're a psych patient. 366 00:31:40,732 --> 00:31:43,359 - Where are we? - Down a liter. 367 00:31:44,403 --> 00:31:45,403 Suction. 368 00:31:46,154 --> 00:31:49,031 I am stuck on Band-Aid brand 369 00:31:49,199 --> 00:31:51,284 'Cause Band-Aid's stuck on me 370 00:31:51,785 --> 00:31:56,372 I am stuck on Band-Aid brand 'Cause Band-Aid's stuck on me 371 00:31:57,207 --> 00:32:01,752 No dying now, Mr. Messinger. Not until you give me Seth's phone number. 372 00:32:03,380 --> 00:32:05,881 I am stuck on Band-Aid brand 373 00:32:06,049 --> 00:32:07,925 'Cause Band-Aid's stuck on me 374 00:32:35,746 --> 00:32:38,039 Those eyes. 375 00:32:38,206 --> 00:32:40,041 The way he looked... 376 00:32:40,542 --> 00:32:42,752 ...right down into me. 377 00:32:45,088 --> 00:32:46,505 Seth. 378 00:32:47,466 --> 00:32:50,343 What kind of name is "Seth"? 379 00:34:49,045 --> 00:34:50,463 Hey. 380 00:34:51,840 --> 00:34:53,632 I thought you'd be here. 381 00:34:54,342 --> 00:34:56,010 Salty. 382 00:34:56,178 --> 00:34:58,929 My transplant tanked at 2 a.m. 383 00:35:00,056 --> 00:35:01,390 You okay? 384 00:35:01,558 --> 00:35:02,600 Yeah. 385 00:35:08,398 --> 00:35:10,566 You might wanna return this. 386 00:35:14,070 --> 00:35:18,574 That part about the spring? "You knew there'd always be a spring." 387 00:35:18,742 --> 00:35:20,576 How did you know that? 388 00:35:20,786 --> 00:35:23,662 What are you talking about? I didn't give you this book. 389 00:35:27,083 --> 00:35:28,083 You didn't? 390 00:35:28,585 --> 00:35:29,919 Where'd you get it? 391 00:35:41,765 --> 00:35:45,017 Hi. I'm a physician and I think a patient left that in my office. 392 00:35:45,268 --> 00:35:48,270 - Can you tell me who checked it out? - I can't tell you who. 393 00:35:48,522 --> 00:35:50,481 I can tell you when. 394 00:35:51,608 --> 00:35:54,235 - Okay. - All right, give me 5 minutes. 395 00:36:25,809 --> 00:36:27,685 Hello, Maggie. 396 00:36:29,771 --> 00:36:31,355 It's nice to see you again. 397 00:36:31,982 --> 00:36:33,524 It's weird to see you again. 398 00:36:34,609 --> 00:36:36,569 Weird is nice. 399 00:36:39,573 --> 00:36:41,198 You like Hemingway? 400 00:36:41,366 --> 00:36:44,326 Yeah. Yeah, I'm starting to. 401 00:36:49,749 --> 00:36:51,458 - May I? - Yeah. 402 00:36:53,336 --> 00:36:56,589 "As I ate the oysters with their strong taste of the sea... 403 00:36:56,798 --> 00:36:58,924 ...and their faint metallic taste... 404 00:36:59,467 --> 00:37:01,802 ...as I drank their cold liquid from each shell... 405 00:37:02,053 --> 00:37:05,097 ...and washed it down with the crisp taste of the wine... 406 00:37:05,307 --> 00:37:07,266 ...I lost the empty feeling... 407 00:37:07,475 --> 00:37:09,435 ...and began to be happy." 408 00:37:10,270 --> 00:37:12,771 He never forgets to describe how things taste. 409 00:37:14,274 --> 00:37:16,108 I like that. 410 00:37:18,278 --> 00:37:20,237 Do you come here a lot? 411 00:37:20,906 --> 00:37:22,197 I live here. 412 00:37:23,742 --> 00:37:25,242 What do you do? 413 00:37:25,535 --> 00:37:26,535 Read. 414 00:37:26,745 --> 00:37:29,038 No, I mean, ha, ha, your work. 415 00:37:30,373 --> 00:37:31,749 I'm a messenger. 416 00:37:33,919 --> 00:37:36,003 What kind of messenger? A bike messenger? 417 00:37:36,463 --> 00:37:38,881 No, I'm a messenger of God. 418 00:37:41,009 --> 00:37:42,217 Got a message for me? 419 00:37:43,303 --> 00:37:44,803 I already gave it to you. 420 00:37:45,013 --> 00:37:49,099 Did you use my pager? I usually don't get my messages unless you beep me. 421 00:37:50,226 --> 00:37:53,479 You've definitely been beeped. 422 00:37:55,774 --> 00:37:57,900 - How is Messinger? - He's good. 423 00:37:58,109 --> 00:38:00,027 The operation went really well. 424 00:38:00,570 --> 00:38:02,780 - It was a good day. - It was. 425 00:38:02,989 --> 00:38:05,324 Yeah, I didn't kill anybody today. 426 00:38:05,909 --> 00:38:09,411 - You're an excellent doctor. - How do you know? 427 00:38:09,579 --> 00:38:10,704 I have a feeling. 428 00:38:11,081 --> 00:38:13,248 That's pretty flimsy evidence. 429 00:38:14,167 --> 00:38:15,250 Close your eyes. 430 00:38:18,171 --> 00:38:19,630 It's just for a moment. 431 00:38:40,026 --> 00:38:41,944 What am I doing? 432 00:38:43,571 --> 00:38:45,906 You're touching me. 433 00:38:46,825 --> 00:38:48,492 Touch. 434 00:38:49,828 --> 00:38:51,620 How do you know? 435 00:38:52,664 --> 00:38:54,373 Because I feel it. 436 00:39:03,258 --> 00:39:05,342 You should trust that. 437 00:39:05,510 --> 00:39:07,761 You don't trust it enough. 438 00:39:19,983 --> 00:39:22,568 - Let's go somewhere. - Where? 439 00:39:22,736 --> 00:39:23,736 I don't care. 440 00:39:24,904 --> 00:39:26,196 What do you want to do? 441 00:39:26,990 --> 00:39:28,532 Anything. 442 00:40:14,037 --> 00:40:15,662 What's that like? 443 00:40:18,458 --> 00:40:20,417 What's it taste like? 444 00:40:20,585 --> 00:40:22,252 Describe it. Like Hemingway. 445 00:40:24,464 --> 00:40:26,965 Well, it tastes like, um... 446 00:40:27,675 --> 00:40:28,884 ...a pear. 447 00:40:29,594 --> 00:40:32,179 You don't know what a pear tastes like? 448 00:40:32,555 --> 00:40:34,973 I don't know what a pear tastes like to you. 449 00:40:41,231 --> 00:40:42,815 Sweet... 450 00:40:42,982 --> 00:40:44,775 ...juicy. 451 00:40:45,902 --> 00:40:48,946 Soft on your tongue. Grainy... 452 00:40:49,155 --> 00:40:52,407 ...like sugary sand that dissolves in your mouth. 453 00:40:56,079 --> 00:40:57,704 How's that? 454 00:41:00,375 --> 00:41:02,459 It's perfect. 455 00:41:19,269 --> 00:41:21,270 The first time I looked in a microscope... 456 00:41:21,437 --> 00:41:24,064 ...that's when I knew I wanted to be a doctor. 457 00:41:27,193 --> 00:41:29,111 Okay, let me have your hand. 458 00:41:29,737 --> 00:41:30,988 What for? 459 00:41:31,197 --> 00:41:32,948 We'll take a look at your blood. 460 00:41:33,992 --> 00:41:35,742 Not a possibility. 461 00:41:36,786 --> 00:41:40,289 Oh. Ha, ha. Men. 462 00:41:40,540 --> 00:41:42,875 I suppose you know a woman's threshold of pain... 463 00:41:43,126 --> 00:41:45,335 ...is nine times higher than a man's. 464 00:41:53,887 --> 00:41:55,637 Okay, take a... 465 00:41:56,139 --> 00:41:58,140 Take a look at that. 466 00:42:01,311 --> 00:42:03,395 That's bright. 467 00:42:08,568 --> 00:42:10,360 That's me. 468 00:42:11,154 --> 00:42:12,154 All those cells. 469 00:42:13,573 --> 00:42:15,365 That's all you are. 470 00:42:17,577 --> 00:42:19,912 That and all the space in between. 471 00:42:21,164 --> 00:42:23,248 If this is all you are... 472 00:42:23,499 --> 00:42:25,250 ...these cells... 473 00:42:26,169 --> 00:42:28,420 ...then when they die, that's the end. 474 00:42:29,714 --> 00:42:31,965 I don't know. I think so. 475 00:42:33,676 --> 00:42:35,469 How do you explain it? 476 00:42:35,637 --> 00:42:37,054 What? 477 00:42:38,223 --> 00:42:40,390 The enduring myth of heaven. 478 00:42:45,480 --> 00:42:47,856 I used to think that I had it all figured out. 479 00:42:48,107 --> 00:42:49,233 But you didn't? 480 00:42:49,651 --> 00:42:54,238 No. 481 00:42:56,157 --> 00:43:00,118 Because something happened. Something happened in my OR and I got... 482 00:43:00,620 --> 00:43:04,122 ...this jolt. I got this feeling that there's something... 483 00:43:04,582 --> 00:43:08,126 ...bigger out there. Something bigger than me, bigger than you, and it... 484 00:43:09,754 --> 00:43:12,047 Does that sound crazy? 485 00:43:12,215 --> 00:43:13,507 No. 486 00:43:14,676 --> 00:43:17,386 Because I couldn't fix him. I did everything right... 487 00:43:17,637 --> 00:43:19,888 ...and I couldn't fix him. 488 00:43:20,556 --> 00:43:22,849 That's not supposed to happen. 489 00:43:25,103 --> 00:43:26,478 And I... 490 00:43:27,105 --> 00:43:28,605 And you cried. 491 00:43:31,693 --> 00:43:33,110 Yeah. 492 00:43:34,904 --> 00:43:37,990 - Why do people cry? - What do you mean? 493 00:43:38,700 --> 00:43:41,201 I mean, what happens physically? 494 00:43:42,078 --> 00:43:44,830 Well, um... 495 00:43:44,998 --> 00:43:48,583 Tear ducts operate on a normal basis to lubricate and protect the eye. 496 00:43:48,835 --> 00:43:52,129 When you have an emotion, they overact and create tears. 497 00:43:52,380 --> 00:43:55,090 Why? Why do they overact? 498 00:43:57,176 --> 00:43:58,552 I don't know. 499 00:43:59,429 --> 00:44:00,846 Maybe... 500 00:44:01,306 --> 00:44:03,307 Maybe emotion becomes so intense... 501 00:44:03,558 --> 00:44:05,434 ...your body just can't contain it. 502 00:44:05,685 --> 00:44:09,354 Your mind and your feelings become too powerful. 503 00:44:09,605 --> 00:44:11,481 Your body weeps. 504 00:44:17,572 --> 00:44:18,655 I have to go. 505 00:44:18,865 --> 00:44:21,325 I gotta go. Stay right here. 506 00:44:21,492 --> 00:44:23,076 Don't go anywhere. 507 00:44:23,286 --> 00:44:25,370 Stay right there. 508 00:44:45,683 --> 00:44:47,351 - Get the tube out. - He can't breathe. 509 00:44:47,602 --> 00:44:49,436 It's because the tube is blocked. 510 00:45:01,574 --> 00:45:03,367 How you feeling? 511 00:45:03,534 --> 00:45:05,369 Ready to hit the waves. 512 00:45:05,536 --> 00:45:08,538 Well, I'm afraid your bodysurfing days are over. 513 00:45:10,666 --> 00:45:13,377 You got a mean tattoo going there. 514 00:45:14,045 --> 00:45:15,796 What does your wife think of that? 515 00:45:15,963 --> 00:45:17,756 That is my wife. 516 00:45:24,305 --> 00:45:25,430 Okay. 517 00:45:26,849 --> 00:45:29,601 Check his vitals every 15. 518 00:45:46,452 --> 00:45:49,204 I can't see you, but I know you're there. 519 00:45:56,087 --> 00:45:58,088 Go back and tell them that I'm not going. 520 00:45:59,757 --> 00:46:01,842 Not yet. 521 00:46:30,371 --> 00:46:31,705 Where have you been? 522 00:46:32,415 --> 00:46:34,791 Oh, shit. I totally forgot dinner. 523 00:46:35,001 --> 00:46:36,293 Dinner? 524 00:46:37,044 --> 00:46:39,588 - With who? - Well, he's a... 525 00:46:40,131 --> 00:46:41,673 Uh... 526 00:46:41,841 --> 00:46:44,718 A guy I met. I bumped into him and we got something to eat. 527 00:46:44,969 --> 00:46:47,053 Did you pack my backpack? 528 00:46:47,638 --> 00:46:48,763 What else? 529 00:46:48,931 --> 00:46:51,641 Well, we talked... 530 00:46:51,809 --> 00:46:53,810 ...and then I got beeped and he disappeared. 531 00:46:53,978 --> 00:46:55,353 Why did you pack my backpack? 532 00:46:55,771 --> 00:46:57,481 Earl, what are you doing? 533 00:46:57,732 --> 00:47:00,484 I thought we'd fly up to Tahoe, use your uncle's cabin... 534 00:47:00,693 --> 00:47:01,985 ...maybe do a little hiking. 535 00:47:03,613 --> 00:47:04,696 What? 536 00:47:07,533 --> 00:47:09,534 God. Is it? 537 00:47:09,744 --> 00:47:10,994 Maggie, it's just a tick. 538 00:47:11,454 --> 00:47:14,331 - Get a match. - We're not going to burn him, Jordan. 539 00:47:14,582 --> 00:47:16,541 It'll have to back out. Can't leave the head in. 540 00:47:16,751 --> 00:47:19,836 - We can't just be burning tick heads. - Then get some alcohol. 541 00:47:20,004 --> 00:47:21,087 I don't have any. 542 00:47:21,255 --> 00:47:23,590 - You don't have any alcohol? - I don't operate here. 543 00:47:23,758 --> 00:47:25,467 Well, how about some olive oil? 544 00:47:25,635 --> 00:47:27,802 Okay. All right. 545 00:47:28,012 --> 00:47:29,679 Which kind? Jalapeño or rosemary? 546 00:47:30,473 --> 00:47:31,890 Rosemary. 547 00:47:33,142 --> 00:47:36,895 So, what did you and your friend...? What did you say his name was? 548 00:47:38,564 --> 00:47:39,564 Seth. 549 00:47:39,815 --> 00:47:42,400 What did you two talk about? 550 00:47:43,402 --> 00:47:44,694 Dying. 551 00:47:47,073 --> 00:47:50,867 Come on, we deal with life and death every day. Why can't we talk about it? 552 00:47:51,077 --> 00:47:54,871 I hope you're not gonna become one of those surgeons who prays in the OR. 553 00:48:02,713 --> 00:48:04,172 Can we talk for a minute? 554 00:48:04,382 --> 00:48:05,674 We'll talk while camping. 555 00:48:05,883 --> 00:48:08,301 No, Jordan, I can't go camping now. 556 00:48:08,511 --> 00:48:10,262 We need to spend some time together. 557 00:48:10,471 --> 00:48:14,015 Okay. All right, let's see if we can just spend five minutes. 558 00:48:14,267 --> 00:48:17,477 Let's see if we can just stand still for five minutes and be together. 559 00:48:18,354 --> 00:48:19,354 Doing what? 560 00:48:19,730 --> 00:48:21,856 Just being here. 561 00:48:22,942 --> 00:48:25,026 - I'll get the trail map. - No. No, no. 562 00:48:25,194 --> 00:48:26,319 No, I mean it. 563 00:48:26,779 --> 00:48:28,154 Nothing but us. 564 00:48:31,534 --> 00:48:32,826 What am I supposed to do? 565 00:48:34,287 --> 00:48:35,704 Just look at me. 566 00:48:47,800 --> 00:48:52,512 You can't do it. 567 00:48:52,763 --> 00:48:55,390 - You flinched. You lose! - You cheat. 568 00:49:09,864 --> 00:49:12,991 That old black magic called 569 00:49:13,242 --> 00:49:15,076 Love 570 00:49:15,578 --> 00:49:17,203 Thank you very much. 571 00:49:17,455 --> 00:49:21,207 Welcome back. We've been talking to mothers who are members of the KKK. 572 00:49:23,419 --> 00:49:25,086 You want to watch anything? 573 00:49:28,799 --> 00:49:30,175 Me neither. 574 00:49:38,643 --> 00:49:40,560 How do you know when I'm here? 575 00:49:46,275 --> 00:49:47,567 I know. 576 00:49:49,779 --> 00:49:51,404 Jeez, you look good. 577 00:49:52,531 --> 00:49:56,284 I forgot how good everybody looked. 578 00:49:58,537 --> 00:50:00,622 Thirty years of silence. 579 00:50:00,873 --> 00:50:04,626 You got guts, kid, showing yourself like that. I appreciate that. I do. 580 00:50:04,877 --> 00:50:06,294 It's gonna make it easier. 581 00:50:07,630 --> 00:50:09,923 I gotta tell you, I feel fine. 582 00:50:10,174 --> 00:50:14,135 You might want to check your orders because I sure don't feel like I'm dying. 583 00:50:14,345 --> 00:50:15,637 You're not dying. 584 00:50:15,846 --> 00:50:19,265 Oh, right. Then how come you're hanging around my room all the time? 585 00:50:19,517 --> 00:50:22,018 I'm the only one with his ass hanging out of his dress. 586 00:50:23,312 --> 00:50:24,813 Unless... 587 00:50:28,317 --> 00:50:29,984 Could it be... 588 00:50:31,070 --> 00:50:32,362 ...the doctor? 589 00:50:33,906 --> 00:50:35,281 Sure. 590 00:50:35,533 --> 00:50:37,075 The doctor. 591 00:50:37,827 --> 00:50:39,661 Oh, she's pretty. 592 00:50:39,912 --> 00:50:41,496 A little flat-chested... 593 00:50:41,747 --> 00:50:43,581 ...but all you need's a handful. 594 00:50:43,791 --> 00:50:45,959 - Who are you? - This is good. 595 00:50:46,335 --> 00:50:48,461 This is what they call... 596 00:50:48,713 --> 00:50:50,880 ..."serendipitous." 597 00:50:51,132 --> 00:50:54,592 Look that up in the dictionary, you'll see a picture of you and me. 598 00:50:54,802 --> 00:50:57,762 Thank you. Thank you, okay? 599 00:51:00,516 --> 00:51:01,933 Okay. 600 00:51:03,018 --> 00:51:04,769 You ready to deal? 601 00:51:05,271 --> 00:51:08,106 Because I can answer all your questions, friend. 602 00:51:18,033 --> 00:51:19,701 How's the French toast this evening? 603 00:51:19,869 --> 00:51:20,869 Fabulous. 604 00:51:21,036 --> 00:51:22,245 Well, set me up. 605 00:51:30,796 --> 00:51:32,881 Guess I should introduce myself. 606 00:51:33,549 --> 00:51:35,049 Come on, give me your hand. 607 00:51:36,844 --> 00:51:39,220 Put it in mine. There you go. 608 00:51:39,430 --> 00:51:41,431 A little tighter. Tighter. There you go. 609 00:51:41,682 --> 00:51:43,224 No, that's too much. 610 00:51:43,434 --> 00:51:45,643 There you go. Good grip. 611 00:51:46,687 --> 00:51:48,104 Nathaniel Messinger. 612 00:51:48,355 --> 00:51:50,148 Glutton, hedonist... 613 00:51:50,399 --> 00:51:54,736 ...former celestial body, recent addition to the human race. 614 00:51:58,616 --> 00:52:00,283 I don't believe you. 615 00:52:00,534 --> 00:52:01,826 You want proof? 616 00:52:02,328 --> 00:52:04,162 You hang out at a library. 617 00:52:04,413 --> 00:52:06,206 You can speak every language. 618 00:52:06,415 --> 00:52:08,374 You travel with the speed of thought. 619 00:52:08,626 --> 00:52:10,627 And you're reading my mind right now. 620 00:52:11,045 --> 00:52:12,045 Stop that. 621 00:52:12,338 --> 00:52:13,463 You're doing it. 622 00:52:15,216 --> 00:52:16,382 It's impossible. 623 00:52:16,801 --> 00:52:19,844 "Some things are true whether you believe them or not." 624 00:52:22,389 --> 00:52:24,098 How? 625 00:52:24,266 --> 00:52:25,558 - You choose. - Choose? 626 00:52:25,810 --> 00:52:27,435 To fall to Earth. 627 00:52:27,686 --> 00:52:30,647 You take the plunge, the tumble, the dive. 628 00:52:30,898 --> 00:52:32,941 You jump off a bridge. Leap out a window. 629 00:52:33,192 --> 00:52:36,110 You just make up your mind to do it and you do it. 630 00:52:39,240 --> 00:52:42,367 You wake up all smelly and aching from head to toe... 631 00:52:42,576 --> 00:52:44,410 ...and hungrier than you've ever been... 632 00:52:44,578 --> 00:52:48,122 ...only you have no idea what hunger is or any of that stuff... 633 00:52:48,374 --> 00:52:52,377 ...so it's all real confusing and painful, but very, very good. 634 00:52:55,339 --> 00:52:56,756 Human. 635 00:52:58,259 --> 00:52:59,509 Listen, kid: 636 00:53:00,970 --> 00:53:04,055 He gave these bozos the greatest gift in the universe. 637 00:53:04,306 --> 00:53:06,558 You think he didn't give it to us too? 638 00:53:06,767 --> 00:53:07,767 Which gift? 639 00:53:08,352 --> 00:53:09,978 Free will, brother. 640 00:53:11,188 --> 00:53:12,814 Free will. 641 00:53:40,342 --> 00:53:41,926 Couldn't get a job. 642 00:53:42,469 --> 00:53:44,345 No past, no training. 643 00:53:44,597 --> 00:53:46,097 No ID. 644 00:53:46,891 --> 00:53:50,268 Then one day, I was walking past a building site. 645 00:53:50,519 --> 00:53:51,936 A skyscraper. 646 00:53:52,187 --> 00:53:54,814 And I thought, "I could do that." 647 00:53:55,065 --> 00:53:56,983 You see, these people down here... 648 00:53:57,234 --> 00:54:00,278 ...a lot of them are afraid of heights, you know what I'm saying? 649 00:54:00,529 --> 00:54:03,740 That makes me uniquely qualified. 650 00:54:04,325 --> 00:54:08,077 And besides, it feels like a little bit of home up here. 651 00:54:08,329 --> 00:54:09,704 And I like what I do. 652 00:54:09,914 --> 00:54:11,122 I'm good at it. 653 00:54:13,667 --> 00:54:15,877 These things'll kill you. 654 00:54:17,671 --> 00:54:19,005 Are there others? 655 00:54:19,715 --> 00:54:21,299 Others like you? 656 00:54:21,675 --> 00:54:23,176 Yeah, they're out there. 657 00:54:23,636 --> 00:54:27,555 You see them, but most of the time you just walk on by. 658 00:54:27,973 --> 00:54:31,768 Nobody likes to think of the old life. You know, what they gave up. 659 00:54:32,353 --> 00:54:34,020 Then why'd you do it? 660 00:54:43,405 --> 00:54:45,031 My daughter, Ruth... 661 00:54:45,282 --> 00:54:47,158 ...her stupid husband, Frank... 662 00:54:47,743 --> 00:54:49,202 ...and my grandkids. 663 00:54:49,453 --> 00:54:51,955 Petie's 4, Hannah's 6. 664 00:54:55,292 --> 00:54:58,503 And this is my wife, Teresa. 665 00:55:01,215 --> 00:55:02,548 Did you... 666 00:55:03,509 --> 00:55:05,176 ...tell her who you were? 667 00:55:06,178 --> 00:55:08,763 I started to try once or twice. 668 00:55:09,181 --> 00:55:11,099 Then I thought, "Why do that to her?" 669 00:55:11,350 --> 00:55:12,642 Do what? 670 00:55:13,227 --> 00:55:15,019 It's too much for them. 671 00:55:16,313 --> 00:55:18,731 People don't believe in us anymore. 672 00:55:28,242 --> 00:55:30,535 Do they still gather together at sunrise? 673 00:55:31,078 --> 00:55:32,996 And sunset, yes. 674 00:55:34,456 --> 00:55:36,249 Take me there? 675 00:55:47,219 --> 00:55:49,137 Can you hear it? 676 00:55:59,690 --> 00:56:00,690 No. 677 00:56:19,710 --> 00:56:21,294 I can't hear that! 678 00:56:21,503 --> 00:56:23,921 But you can't feel this! 679 00:56:24,423 --> 00:56:25,757 Nathan! 680 00:56:32,931 --> 00:56:34,223 You have to go back. 681 00:56:34,475 --> 00:56:36,601 Not until I catch the big wave. 682 00:56:40,939 --> 00:56:43,900 Wait. 683 00:56:44,151 --> 00:56:45,610 Wait for what? 684 00:56:46,779 --> 00:56:47,904 Swim! 685 00:57:23,690 --> 00:57:25,691 And then you just... 686 00:57:26,151 --> 00:57:27,276 ...fall. 687 00:57:27,861 --> 00:57:29,403 - Fall? - Dive. 688 00:57:30,447 --> 00:57:32,490 You make up your mind to do it... 689 00:57:33,492 --> 00:57:34,951 ...and you do it. 690 00:57:35,494 --> 00:57:37,787 And when you wake up, you're? 691 00:57:38,455 --> 00:57:39,831 Yes. 692 00:57:42,126 --> 00:57:44,001 To smell the air. 693 00:57:44,461 --> 00:57:45,962 Taste water. 694 00:57:46,213 --> 00:57:47,421 Read a newspaper. 695 00:57:47,631 --> 00:57:50,049 - To lie. - Through your teeth. 696 00:57:50,717 --> 00:57:51,717 To feed the dog. 697 00:57:54,638 --> 00:57:55,972 Touch her hair. 698 00:57:58,517 --> 00:58:00,476 What are you waiting for? 699 00:58:05,649 --> 00:58:08,317 There is so much beauty up here. 700 00:58:10,028 --> 00:58:11,529 Yes. 701 00:58:36,430 --> 00:58:37,638 Here you are again. 702 00:58:39,224 --> 00:58:41,100 We're releasing your friend tomorrow. 703 00:58:41,268 --> 00:58:42,518 That's good. 704 00:58:42,769 --> 00:58:46,147 His family's having a kind of a welcome-home party. 705 00:58:46,607 --> 00:58:48,024 Are you? 706 00:58:49,276 --> 00:58:52,737 Will you be going? 707 00:58:55,574 --> 00:58:56,574 This is Earl. 708 00:58:56,742 --> 00:58:58,117 He told me. 709 00:58:59,244 --> 00:59:00,494 What else does he tell you? 710 00:59:00,704 --> 00:59:04,665 He worries that you never sleep. And he loves to see you smile. 711 00:59:05,417 --> 00:59:08,461 Sometimes I think Earl's the only one who understands me. 712 00:59:08,712 --> 00:59:09,921 What about your boyfriend? 713 00:59:10,380 --> 00:59:11,714 Do you love him? 714 00:59:14,718 --> 00:59:16,052 Love? I don't know. 715 00:59:16,303 --> 00:59:17,637 What does that mean? 716 00:59:18,555 --> 00:59:20,640 I was hoping you could tell me. 717 00:59:21,600 --> 00:59:23,726 Well, it's a word... 718 00:59:23,977 --> 00:59:26,646 ...that describes a chemical react... 719 00:59:28,232 --> 00:59:30,900 It's just crap. I'm full of crap. 720 00:59:32,819 --> 00:59:36,197 I wait all day, just hoping for one more minute with you... 721 00:59:36,448 --> 00:59:38,115 ...and I don't even know you. 722 00:59:38,617 --> 00:59:40,368 What do you want to know? 723 00:59:42,371 --> 00:59:44,330 Why you wear the same clothes all the time? 724 00:59:44,498 --> 00:59:46,540 Why won't you give me your phone number? 725 00:59:47,626 --> 00:59:48,793 Are you married? 726 00:59:49,503 --> 00:59:50,544 No. 727 00:59:51,421 --> 00:59:52,421 Are you homeless? 728 00:59:54,007 --> 00:59:55,174 No. 729 00:59:56,218 --> 00:59:57,385 Are you a drummer? 730 01:00:02,307 --> 01:00:04,308 Why don't you ever touch me? 731 01:00:08,272 --> 01:00:10,398 I don't want to hurt you. 732 01:00:12,484 --> 01:00:14,402 You won't hurt me. 733 01:00:39,011 --> 01:00:40,386 Did you feel that? 734 01:00:53,859 --> 01:00:56,193 If I could make you understand... 735 01:00:59,406 --> 01:01:00,906 I understand. 736 01:01:05,704 --> 01:01:07,204 I'll see you around. 737 01:02:12,270 --> 01:02:13,687 Hey, doc! 738 01:02:16,233 --> 01:02:19,693 No, give me the whole package. Come here. 739 01:02:19,903 --> 01:02:21,404 - Hi. - Thanks for coming. 740 01:02:21,655 --> 01:02:22,988 You look great. 741 01:02:24,825 --> 01:02:25,825 Is this heaven? 742 01:02:26,159 --> 01:02:27,743 Look at this. 743 01:02:31,998 --> 01:02:33,791 Come on, let's meet some people. 744 01:02:34,209 --> 01:02:35,668 You got an appetite? 745 01:02:40,257 --> 01:02:41,674 Have a beer, Seth. 746 01:02:42,509 --> 01:02:43,509 Where you from? 747 01:02:44,761 --> 01:02:45,761 Up. 748 01:02:45,929 --> 01:02:48,597 - North. Uh, ahem, Canada. - Oh, yeah? 749 01:02:55,313 --> 01:02:56,856 Listen. Can you hear? 750 01:02:57,816 --> 01:02:59,275 I'm growing. 751 01:02:59,985 --> 01:03:00,985 Smile, Hannah. 752 01:03:04,239 --> 01:03:06,490 Oh, how cute. 753 01:03:10,662 --> 01:03:12,037 How long have you known Seth? 754 01:03:14,040 --> 01:03:15,332 Not very long. 755 01:03:16,835 --> 01:03:19,128 But I feel like I've known him forever. 756 01:03:20,213 --> 01:03:22,214 Honey, that hurts. 757 01:03:24,342 --> 01:03:26,051 You're just like Grandpa. 758 01:03:28,138 --> 01:03:29,305 Come on. 759 01:03:29,973 --> 01:03:31,557 Let's see if the cookies are done. 760 01:03:31,808 --> 01:03:32,850 Come on, Seth. 761 01:03:33,101 --> 01:03:35,311 - Can I help you? - Yeah, great. 762 01:03:40,692 --> 01:03:41,984 How did you two meet? 763 01:03:43,695 --> 01:03:46,489 He works with me over at the site. Construction work. 764 01:03:47,449 --> 01:03:48,782 I thought he was a messenger. 765 01:03:49,868 --> 01:03:51,911 Yeah, he's one of those... 766 01:03:52,162 --> 01:03:53,162 ..."hyphenates." 767 01:03:54,039 --> 01:03:55,748 I'll be right back. 768 01:04:12,390 --> 01:04:14,391 Seth, Seth. 769 01:04:15,310 --> 01:04:16,727 Hey. 770 01:04:35,121 --> 01:04:37,289 Here, can you cut this up? 771 01:04:44,589 --> 01:04:47,049 So in what province is it in Canada were you born? 772 01:04:48,093 --> 01:04:49,885 I wasn't born in Canada. 773 01:04:54,516 --> 01:04:55,849 What are your parents' names? 774 01:05:04,359 --> 01:05:06,026 No parents. 775 01:05:13,076 --> 01:05:15,953 You have very delicate hands for a construction worker. 776 01:05:16,162 --> 01:05:17,705 I'm not a construction worker. 777 01:05:17,998 --> 01:05:20,207 Very pale hands. Let me see. 778 01:05:24,170 --> 01:05:26,547 - Why did you do that? - Let me see your hand. 779 01:05:26,756 --> 01:05:27,756 No. 780 01:05:29,843 --> 01:05:30,843 What's your last name? 781 01:05:31,052 --> 01:05:32,261 You know my last name. 782 01:05:32,470 --> 01:05:33,721 No, I don't. 783 01:05:36,016 --> 01:05:37,057 Plate. 784 01:05:37,892 --> 01:05:38,934 Seth Plate? 785 01:05:45,692 --> 01:05:51,071 I cut you. 786 01:05:52,824 --> 01:05:56,785 I cut you with that knife. I felt it go in. You felt it. 787 01:05:57,787 --> 01:05:59,121 Not the way you do. 788 01:06:00,707 --> 01:06:02,249 The way I do? What does that mean? 789 01:06:02,542 --> 01:06:06,128 You mean the way a doctor does? The way a woman does? What? 790 01:06:06,338 --> 01:06:07,755 The way... 791 01:06:09,049 --> 01:06:10,049 ...a human does. 792 01:06:12,552 --> 01:06:13,969 I have no sense of touch. 793 01:06:15,221 --> 01:06:16,221 You feel that? 794 01:06:16,389 --> 01:06:18,182 You don't have to be frightened. 795 01:06:18,350 --> 01:06:19,725 You freak! 796 01:06:19,893 --> 01:06:21,143 You liar! 797 01:06:21,728 --> 01:06:23,604 Who... What are you? 798 01:06:23,813 --> 01:06:25,397 I came to take Mr. Balford... 799 01:06:26,775 --> 01:06:28,692 ...and I saw you. 800 01:06:30,362 --> 01:06:32,613 I couldn't take my eyes off you. 801 01:06:33,448 --> 01:06:35,282 How you fought for him. 802 01:06:37,369 --> 01:06:39,286 And you looked right at me... 803 01:06:39,913 --> 01:06:41,622 ...like I was a man. 804 01:06:42,207 --> 01:06:45,084 - "To take Mr. Balford"? - I was there. 805 01:06:45,377 --> 01:06:49,296 - We're always there in every room. - What are you talking about? 806 01:06:49,798 --> 01:06:51,757 I was there in the stairwell... 807 01:06:52,217 --> 01:06:54,426 ...when you cried for your patient. 808 01:06:54,594 --> 01:06:57,596 And I touched you. Remember? 809 01:06:59,099 --> 01:07:00,641 Why are you doing this? 810 01:07:02,060 --> 01:07:04,353 Because I'm in love with you. 811 01:07:11,820 --> 01:07:13,904 I don't believe you. 812 01:07:14,322 --> 01:07:15,906 Do you feel that? 813 01:07:18,618 --> 01:07:20,077 You don't want to believe me. 814 01:07:20,745 --> 01:07:22,705 I cannot conceive of it! 815 01:07:24,124 --> 01:07:26,125 - Maggie. - Just get out! 816 01:07:27,293 --> 01:07:29,378 Get out! 817 01:08:18,887 --> 01:08:20,429 Doctor? 818 01:08:22,974 --> 01:08:24,767 Doctor? 819 01:09:11,105 --> 01:09:12,523 Hello? 820 01:09:19,197 --> 01:09:20,614 Seth? 821 01:09:23,952 --> 01:09:25,577 Are you here? 822 01:10:22,093 --> 01:10:24,094 I wanna see you. 823 01:10:26,514 --> 01:10:28,640 Let me see you. 824 01:10:57,921 --> 01:10:59,755 Just stay. 825 01:11:02,300 --> 01:11:04,635 Just stay until I fall asleep. 826 01:11:41,714 --> 01:11:43,882 Oh, yes! 827 01:11:46,386 --> 01:11:48,136 Thank you. 828 01:12:07,407 --> 01:12:09,116 - Maggie. - Hey. 829 01:12:09,283 --> 01:12:11,201 - The baby can't sleep. - What? 830 01:12:11,911 --> 01:12:13,745 Has anyone ever seen the baby sleep? 831 01:12:13,913 --> 01:12:16,707 I don't know. Let's check him out. 832 01:12:20,461 --> 01:12:22,004 - Okay. - Hey. 833 01:12:25,883 --> 01:12:27,050 Choanal atresia. 834 01:12:27,301 --> 01:12:29,761 There's hardly any air getting through. 835 01:12:30,388 --> 01:12:31,388 How did you know? 836 01:12:33,391 --> 01:12:35,225 I just... 837 01:12:36,602 --> 01:12:38,186 ...knew! 838 01:13:03,588 --> 01:13:05,130 Maggie? 839 01:13:05,298 --> 01:13:06,423 Yeah. 840 01:13:06,591 --> 01:13:08,216 Are you alone? 841 01:13:08,593 --> 01:13:10,010 Yeah. 842 01:13:13,681 --> 01:13:16,308 Pretty intuitive call on the baby. 843 01:13:16,476 --> 01:13:18,018 Think so? 844 01:13:19,145 --> 01:13:21,021 I couldn't have done it better. 845 01:13:21,731 --> 01:13:24,024 Well, that's a compliment. 846 01:13:38,289 --> 01:13:39,831 What are you doing? 847 01:13:40,166 --> 01:13:41,625 I'm spending time with you. 848 01:13:44,504 --> 01:13:46,797 Will you marry me? 849 01:13:46,964 --> 01:13:48,882 We can finally get up to Tahoe. 850 01:13:49,092 --> 01:13:50,634 Get married on the Nevada side... 851 01:13:50,968 --> 01:13:53,136 ...honeymoon and be back before we miss a case. 852 01:13:55,264 --> 01:13:58,266 What do you want me to do? Get down on my knees? 853 01:13:58,434 --> 01:13:59,726 What do you want me to say? 854 01:14:00,686 --> 01:14:02,771 We belong together. 855 01:14:02,939 --> 01:14:04,606 We're the same species. 856 01:14:06,317 --> 01:14:08,235 - Jordan... - I'm not... 857 01:14:11,197 --> 01:14:15,117 I'm not very good at matters of the heart. I mean... 858 01:14:15,284 --> 01:14:17,702 ...the proverbial heart. 859 01:14:20,331 --> 01:14:21,873 Please be my wife. 860 01:14:23,000 --> 01:14:24,584 Just... 861 01:14:26,379 --> 01:14:27,587 Just think about it. 862 01:14:43,521 --> 01:14:45,147 Breathe in. 863 01:14:48,401 --> 01:14:50,193 Breathe in. 864 01:15:03,040 --> 01:15:04,791 I'm good. 865 01:15:12,049 --> 01:15:17,095 I don't understand a God who would let us meet, if we could never be together. 866 01:15:20,349 --> 01:15:21,433 He didn't tell you. 867 01:15:25,646 --> 01:15:26,646 Tell me what? 868 01:15:27,273 --> 01:15:28,565 Maybe you should ask him. 869 01:15:29,317 --> 01:15:31,484 No, I'm asking you. 870 01:15:42,538 --> 01:15:44,456 Seth knows no fear... 871 01:15:44,624 --> 01:15:45,999 ...no pain... 872 01:15:46,167 --> 01:15:47,709 ...no hunger. 873 01:15:48,878 --> 01:15:51,755 He hears music in the sunrise. 874 01:15:53,591 --> 01:15:55,508 But he'd give it all up. 875 01:15:55,676 --> 01:15:57,177 He loves you that much. 876 01:15:59,931 --> 01:16:01,932 I don't understand. 877 01:16:04,727 --> 01:16:06,728 He can fall. 878 01:16:06,896 --> 01:16:09,689 He can give up his existence as he knows it. 879 01:16:09,857 --> 01:16:13,026 He can give up eternity and become... 880 01:16:13,194 --> 01:16:14,361 ...one of us. 881 01:16:15,196 --> 01:16:17,322 It's up to you. 882 01:16:18,491 --> 01:16:20,450 How do you know this? 883 01:16:25,998 --> 01:16:28,041 Because I did it. 884 01:16:48,604 --> 01:17:00,907 Seth? 885 01:17:05,121 --> 01:17:07,580 Seth, I need to talk to you. 886 01:17:11,502 --> 01:17:13,628 Seth, please. 887 01:17:16,507 --> 01:17:18,425 Please be here. 888 01:17:19,927 --> 01:17:22,262 Oh, God, help me through this. 889 01:17:33,232 --> 01:17:35,650 You are so beautiful. 890 01:17:37,611 --> 01:17:39,988 You'll always be that way. 891 01:17:42,908 --> 01:17:44,826 Jordan asked me to go away with him... 892 01:17:45,036 --> 01:17:47,037 ...and get married. 893 01:17:49,332 --> 01:17:51,291 He knows me. 894 01:17:52,126 --> 01:17:54,169 He knows the demands of my work. 895 01:17:54,712 --> 01:17:56,796 You don't love him. 896 01:17:57,673 --> 01:17:59,424 He and I are the same. 897 01:18:01,886 --> 01:18:03,887 And I want that. 898 01:18:07,058 --> 01:18:10,894 And I want somebody who can feel my hand when I touch him. 899 01:18:12,646 --> 01:18:14,272 But you can feel me. 900 01:18:14,565 --> 01:18:16,274 You felt me. 901 01:18:17,985 --> 01:18:20,195 I want to say goodbye. 902 01:18:21,989 --> 01:18:23,948 I don't want to see you again. 903 01:22:07,840 --> 01:22:09,382 Yoo-hoo! 904 01:22:25,149 --> 01:22:27,358 Hey. Hey, buddy. 905 01:22:27,651 --> 01:22:29,110 You can't be in here. 906 01:22:29,987 --> 01:22:34,741 Do you see me? 907 01:22:34,908 --> 01:22:36,326 Can you see me? 908 01:22:36,535 --> 01:22:37,744 Oh, yeah. We can see you. 909 01:22:37,953 --> 01:22:39,537 Your invisible drug wore off. 910 01:22:39,705 --> 01:22:41,247 Is this blood? 911 01:22:41,415 --> 01:22:42,415 This is blood! 912 01:22:42,708 --> 01:22:43,833 Is it red? 913 01:22:44,418 --> 01:22:45,627 Red? 914 01:22:45,794 --> 01:22:47,545 Is it red? 915 01:22:48,422 --> 01:22:49,964 Color. 916 01:22:50,174 --> 01:22:52,550 What color were the drugs you took? 917 01:22:53,594 --> 01:22:55,136 Better get your butt out of here. 918 01:22:55,846 --> 01:22:56,971 You got somewhere to go? 919 01:23:00,934 --> 01:23:08,191 Maggie. 920 01:23:14,365 --> 01:23:17,200 Down and down and down I go 921 01:23:17,493 --> 01:23:19,702 Round and round and round I go 922 01:23:20,454 --> 01:23:22,080 Round and spin 923 01:23:22,373 --> 01:23:24,499 Loving the spin I'm in 924 01:23:24,833 --> 01:23:27,335 Loving that old black magic 925 01:23:27,628 --> 01:23:29,587 Called love 926 01:23:31,090 --> 01:23:32,965 Love! 927 01:23:34,301 --> 01:23:35,468 Hi! 928 01:23:38,764 --> 01:23:40,181 Hello. 929 01:23:45,437 --> 01:23:48,231 I was wondering if you could tell me how to get to the county hospital? 930 01:24:32,901 --> 01:24:34,068 Can I help you, sir? 931 01:24:34,319 --> 01:24:37,113 I'll just take a moment to catch my breath. 932 01:24:38,157 --> 01:24:39,699 Breath! 933 01:24:42,494 --> 01:24:43,536 Maggie Rice. 934 01:24:45,289 --> 01:24:46,497 Are you a patient? 935 01:24:46,874 --> 01:24:48,541 No. I just need to find her, please. 936 01:24:48,876 --> 01:24:51,586 You'll have to call her office. Someone there can help you. 937 01:24:51,879 --> 01:24:53,087 Do you know where she is? 938 01:24:53,881 --> 01:24:55,840 No, sir, I do not know where she is. 939 01:24:59,178 --> 01:25:00,803 You have this computer... 940 01:25:02,055 --> 01:25:04,348 ...and all this technology. Can't you look her up? 941 01:25:05,225 --> 01:25:06,267 Anne! 942 01:25:08,103 --> 01:25:09,604 Where's Maggie? 943 01:25:14,693 --> 01:25:16,986 So you're a friend of Maggie's? 944 01:25:18,530 --> 01:25:19,781 What happened to you? 945 01:25:20,115 --> 01:25:21,115 Sorry. 946 01:25:21,533 --> 01:25:22,658 It's okay. 947 01:25:25,788 --> 01:25:26,996 I fell. 948 01:25:27,498 --> 01:25:30,166 Evidently. Off a train? 949 01:25:31,126 --> 01:25:32,710 I fell in love. 950 01:25:36,757 --> 01:25:38,466 Anne? 951 01:25:40,093 --> 01:25:41,677 Please help me find her. 952 01:25:46,892 --> 01:25:50,269 She went to Lake Tahoe. Her uncle has a cabin on the Nevada side. 953 01:25:50,479 --> 01:25:51,562 Wait! 954 01:26:23,178 --> 01:26:24,846 Cassiel. 955 01:26:25,347 --> 01:26:27,056 Are you there? 956 01:26:35,566 --> 01:26:36,816 Hello. 957 01:27:31,705 --> 01:27:33,456 Where you headed? 958 01:27:34,666 --> 01:27:35,666 Tahoe! 959 01:27:36,960 --> 01:27:38,169 Reno! 960 01:27:38,503 --> 01:27:39,587 Tahoe! 961 01:27:40,255 --> 01:27:41,631 I'm going to Reno. 962 01:27:41,840 --> 01:27:43,382 I'm going to Tahoe. 963 01:27:43,926 --> 01:27:46,302 Hop in. We'll figure it out when we get there. 964 01:29:04,673 --> 01:29:06,132 Earl? 965 01:30:03,607 --> 01:30:05,649 Am I too late? 966 01:30:06,902 --> 01:30:07,902 Too late? 967 01:30:08,820 --> 01:30:09,945 Jordan? 968 01:30:14,367 --> 01:30:16,827 I couldn't marry Jordan. 969 01:30:19,456 --> 01:30:21,665 I'm in love with you. 970 01:30:29,299 --> 01:30:31,133 What happened? 971 01:30:34,096 --> 01:30:35,930 Free will. 972 01:30:50,654 --> 01:30:52,655 I feel you. 973 01:32:11,234 --> 01:32:12,902 Do you feel that? 974 01:32:13,069 --> 01:32:14,570 Yes. 975 01:32:16,156 --> 01:32:17,907 And that? 976 01:32:21,536 --> 01:32:24,914 How's it feel? Tell me what it feels like. 977 01:32:25,373 --> 01:32:27,082 I can't. 978 01:32:28,752 --> 01:32:30,211 Try. 979 01:32:31,588 --> 01:32:33,130 Warm. 980 01:32:38,220 --> 01:32:40,095 Aching. 981 01:32:57,656 --> 01:32:59,323 It's okay. 982 01:33:01,743 --> 01:33:03,035 We fit together. 983 01:33:03,203 --> 01:33:04,828 I know. 984 01:33:05,080 --> 01:33:07,623 We were made to fit together. 985 01:33:28,687 --> 01:33:31,689 I always asked the dying what they liked best about living. 986 01:33:34,401 --> 01:33:36,485 Wrote it down in my book. 987 01:33:38,697 --> 01:33:40,281 This is it. 988 01:33:41,491 --> 01:33:43,617 This is what I like best. 989 01:33:44,202 --> 01:33:46,704 You haven't even started yet. 990 01:33:47,122 --> 01:33:49,707 We have our whole lives together. 991 01:33:49,874 --> 01:33:51,166 You and me. 992 01:33:51,334 --> 01:33:53,585 Mr. And Mrs. Plate. 993 01:35:31,393 --> 01:35:33,102 Hey. 994 01:39:26,210 --> 01:39:27,628 Maggie. 995 01:39:28,588 --> 01:39:29,671 Seth. 996 01:39:29,839 --> 01:39:31,798 - I'll get help. - You're here. 997 01:39:32,508 --> 01:39:34,009 - Stay. - I should get help. 998 01:39:34,260 --> 01:39:36,303 Don't go. The driver went. 999 01:39:36,512 --> 01:39:37,846 Please stay. 1000 01:39:38,181 --> 01:39:40,682 Please stay with me. 1001 01:39:40,850 --> 01:39:42,309 I'm scared. 1002 01:39:47,023 --> 01:39:49,524 - I screwed up. - No. 1003 01:39:49,942 --> 01:39:51,818 I wanted to show you everything. 1004 01:39:52,278 --> 01:39:53,487 You will. 1005 01:39:57,158 --> 01:40:00,661 You came all this way. 1006 01:40:01,245 --> 01:40:03,038 I'm sorry. 1007 01:40:03,831 --> 01:40:05,791 Oh, God, no, Maggie. 1008 01:40:06,876 --> 01:40:08,293 To touch you... 1009 01:40:08,461 --> 01:40:09,628 ...and to feel you. 1010 01:40:10,588 --> 01:40:13,840 To be able to hold your hand right now. 1011 01:40:14,008 --> 01:40:15,217 You know what that means? 1012 01:40:15,426 --> 01:40:18,679 Do you know how much I love you? 1013 01:40:22,642 --> 01:40:24,976 Keep looking at me, okay? 1014 01:40:26,354 --> 01:40:28,105 Look right in my eyes. 1015 01:40:30,066 --> 01:40:32,901 - Someone's out there. - Maggie. 1016 01:40:33,778 --> 01:40:37,280 Don't look at them. Please, Maggie, no, don't you look at them. 1017 01:40:37,448 --> 01:40:39,825 Is this what happens? 1018 01:40:46,124 --> 01:40:47,457 Yes. 1019 01:40:53,631 --> 01:40:56,133 This is what happens. 1020 01:40:59,804 --> 01:41:01,847 I'm not afraid. 1021 01:41:05,685 --> 01:41:07,811 When they ask me... 1022 01:41:09,522 --> 01:41:11,356 ...what I liked the best... 1023 01:41:13,151 --> 01:41:14,484 ...I'll tell them... 1024 01:41:14,652 --> 01:41:16,653 ...it was you. 1025 01:41:46,267 --> 01:41:47,934 God! 1026 01:43:50,933 --> 01:43:53,894 I can't see you, but I know you're there. 1027 01:43:55,980 --> 01:43:57,898 I'm sorry. 1028 01:44:00,943 --> 01:44:02,485 Get out. 1029 01:44:03,070 --> 01:44:04,613 Seth. 1030 01:44:04,780 --> 01:44:07,407 Was it you? Were you the one? Were you there? 1031 01:44:07,950 --> 01:44:09,367 No. 1032 01:44:10,119 --> 01:44:11,369 Why did he do this? 1033 01:44:11,579 --> 01:44:12,662 I don't know. 1034 01:44:12,872 --> 01:44:14,080 Because her number was up? 1035 01:44:15,249 --> 01:44:17,000 What do you want me to say? 1036 01:44:24,634 --> 01:44:28,136 - Am I being punished? - You know better than that. 1037 01:44:29,472 --> 01:44:31,181 That's life. 1038 01:44:32,892 --> 01:44:34,684 You're living now. 1039 01:44:35,978 --> 01:44:37,479 And one day... 1040 01:44:37,647 --> 01:44:39,272 ...you'll be dying. 1041 01:44:45,780 --> 01:44:46,821 What's it like? 1042 01:44:48,157 --> 01:44:49,366 What? 1043 01:44:50,201 --> 01:44:51,201 Warmth. 1044 01:44:53,496 --> 01:44:55,330 It's wonderful. 1045 01:44:56,999 --> 01:44:59,709 If you'd known this was going to happen... 1046 01:45:00,878 --> 01:45:02,212 ...would you have done it? 1047 01:45:08,302 --> 01:45:10,845 I would rather have had... 1048 01:45:11,847 --> 01:45:14,391 ...one breath of her hair... 1049 01:45:16,227 --> 01:45:19,854 ...one kiss of her mouth... 1050 01:45:22,566 --> 01:45:25,026 ...one touch of her hand... 1051 01:45:26,696 --> 01:45:29,406 ...than an eternity without it. 1052 01:45:31,867 --> 01:45:33,410 One.